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Juicy Jams

Happy Tunesday y’all! If it isn’t yet apparent, I absolutely love music! One of my favorite things is just listening to a bunch of new radio stations and finding new songs and artists to add to my playlists. I’m going to make a post soon about the playlists I have so far– I just did a lil winter-organizing and my playlists are looking #GOODT if I do say so myself.

Today I just wanted to share (in no particular order) some absolute BOPS that have provided me a wealth of serotonin over the past few weeks. These are songs I would typically pop onto one of my fave playlists that I share with a friend which you can check out here if you’d like!

Mountains by Charlotte Day Wilson

I find this song so haunting and warm at the same time. Like I get the feeling that I’m both underwater and in a beautiful cathedral simultaneously. Fun fact: Babyface is credited as one of the writers! It’s generally about heartbreak and betrayal, light and fun stuff~

Guilty Conscience by 070 Shake

I haven’t seen the music video and am solely basing my appreciation of this song on the audio. Regardless the artist is QUEER so that is incredibly important. But this song makes me want to drive around with my windows down and have an absolute “IDGAF” attitude for the rest of the day…maybe even week. The most PG iteration of the “story” being told is that it’s about accepting that you and your partner may both have faults and coming to terms with that equal footing.


this right here is a lil bop!! it’s PawPaw’s first release and it absolutely makes me want to know what else he has in store. It’s groovy, funky, and SO danceable. Don’t ask me what the song is about because I literally have no idea.

Bodies by The Knocks & MUNA

This song is the epitome of serotonin. I love MUNA they are queer icons. This is the first thing I’ve heard from The Knocks but I’d like to see if they have other bangers such as this one. This song is about a party… does anyone remember those? I’d give up SO much to dance to this in a club but I will have to settle for my bedroom for right now.

Have you heard of any of these songs? If you happen to listen to them all, let me know which ones you like best. If there are songs similar to these that you think I might like, please put me on!! I’m always trying to expand my musical mind, ya feel ~

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new pic, who dis?

i’ve decided to mentally promote one of my followers on tiktok from the category of Mutual all the way up to Friend; it’s hard being this gracious 😌

his name is R and he lives in kansas and i’m getting more and more drawn to living somewhere rural based on his videos but that’s a post for later

he changed his profile picture to this CUTE avi that i assumed was hand drawn by him so ofc as a ✨ patron of the arts ✨ i asked if he was taking commissions– all to find out there’s legit just a website that you build your avi yourself !!

anyway i made mine and i love them. look how cute they are!!! they make me want to get bangs and repierce my ear . . . stay tuned tbh

made here

i put them in a fit that is most aligned with my most gender affirming aesthetic (peep the florals, the single dangly queer earring, and the BUTTON okay like we’re doing it ALL)

the background is a failed sunset photo i was trying to take among the brutalist architecture of my beloved alma mater but my slippery fingers said, “not today tha’am”. i never got around to deleting the pic though and i ended up making it the cover image for the first original tracks i’ve ever released, so now this haze of color and darkness has a bit more meaning to me

anyway i’m boutta do that thing where i change every single profile picture to this and use it for the next 11 years xoxo

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January Challenge: Day 14

[This month, as part of my New Year’s Resolution, I committed to cutting out sugar, alcohol, spending money, and checking my weight.]

We’re almost halfway there, ladies!!!!!!


I’m noticing more and more instances of me craving sugar. This really only ever happens when there are sweets in my line of sight. I’ve gotten pretty close but I haven’t ever caved, which I’m proud of. For example, on Saturday I was in Northampton and walked INTO Glazed (the donut shop that revolutionized my college experience) and somehow didn’t buy a donut! Who have I become?! Also, I ordered a coffee today (which was wild, I might write about that soon) and there was no sugar in it and it was just .. not good. But I don’t like coffee to begin with so I don’t think that was a sugar-specific thing.


Well I checked my weight on Saturday. In my defense, it was at the end of the day, I was fully clothed, and it was in my friend’s bathroom. Meaning that all of the things I do to keep my weigh-ins consistent were not present. In my head, this weight check doesn’t count just because of how inaccurate it was.

Something I did at home was to move my scale into the bathroom closet. I honestly think this has made a world of difference. I can’t believe I hadn’t thought of it before. This made it more of a “challenge” to weigh myself because I couldn’t just absentmindedly hop on it, like I might when it was in its original location.


So Saturday…. (are y’all noticing a pattern here?) I went to Lucky’s and bought two septum rings and I bought dinner at Pita Pockets and I spent money at Glazed… I really needed to make the most of my short time back in NoHo, I guess. Also, this morning I was feeling super fatigued and I Ubered to work. It’s been so long that I took an Uber that I was honestly shocked by the price. Remember when I was Ubering to work upwards of 3 times per week? Yikes!! Wholly unsustainable!! But basically I’ve been way looser on the whole no-spend thing than I’ve wanted to be. If my intention is to actually save money and to collect fewer “materials,” then it’s absolutely time to tighten the reins.

I’ve begun creating a running list of things I want to buy once this spending freeze is over. I’m pretty excited but it’s also somewhat helping me put things into perspective between what I want and what I actually need.


I went to a wine-and-cheese party on Saturday and didn’t drink any wine?! I was shocked, too! But it was definitely helpful because it meant that I could drive home that night: Responsibility! Only two people commented on it, but it was in a banter-y way so it was absolutely fine. I’m a little bummed that I won’t be able to get obliterated on Wednesday when the term ends. 😦 But it’ll be okay, I presume…..