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Is Virtue Signalling Really All That Bad?

I was listening to this week’s episode of Sibling Rivalry (The One About Wokeness) and Bob the Drag Queen and Monet X Change were talking about virtue signalling.

Bob says it’s okay because it shows safety in whatever establishment that you’re at. Which I get.

Monet cites a Kamala event that shows that virtue signalling could be nefarious. Which I also get

I don’t remember which Kamala event that Monet was referencing and if I stop to look it up right now I will simply never get this post out so I found a different Kamala event instead: Kamala did CNN’s LGBTQ Town Hall in fall 2019 and when she introduced herself with Cuomo, she included her pronouns (“she/her/hers”) while introducing herself. To me, that screams virtue signalling because it is not consistent with her everyday behaviors (that we see constantly because she is a public figure). She was aware of her audience and aware that she could show this small token to demonstrate that she knows the first thing about LGBTQ issues. Does her baseline understanding and demonstration not stand for something?

Deray McKesson on his interview with Kid Fury and Crissle West on The Read TV mentioned enjoying seeing Pride merchandise because it still shows some level of growing awareness and inclusion.

Around 9:30 he starts his discussion on queer representation. He discusses LGBTQ symbolism is now starting to be seen like “it’s a normal thing, not an aberration”

On pride merchandise, which I consider to be virtue signalling on behalf of a company rather than a person at times, Deray has another opinion: “People make fun of all the commidifying pride but like I wish I grew up in Baltimore seeing people wearing the pride flag. That would have symbolized something to me that I never saw any of that stuff in the city when I was growing up.”

The issue with virtue-signalling is that the expectations of what people are meant to do in order to wear XYZ badge of honor is fairly high.

It is one thing to lie and manipulate people. There have been too many instances of people using virtue signalling as a means of lying to and manipulating people. But what about the people who don’t even believe that they’re lying?

For example, if a celebrity puts up a selfie and says “black lives matter” in the caption, they get dogged
for usurping the movement for their own gain,
for detracting from the ~real~ organizers,
for muddling the message.
why are we gatekeeping every single individual who believes in this sentiment? Can we not bring them inside the club and shape their views there?

I think virtue signalling is important because it is showing this massive shift in mass awareness of LGBT issues. It’s not “you can’t say BLM and not RT a gofundme as well” like tbh they can? and maybe they might? and maybe the thought never crossed their mind? people grow and change and learn every single day and have behaviors that simply come from ignorance.

This is a hard realization because I never want to defend a celebrity especially ones that I consistently do pretty stupid/capitalist things, but I think we’re being a little too excessive in our expectations. I don’t do half the things celebrities are demanded to go with regards to how I present my views on social issues but i definitely virtue signal. i need to virtue signal in order to find the networks i want to be in.


Even within the LGBTQ community and as someone who is part of a good 3 marginalized groups here in the U.S. I still don’t feel “woke” at all– I’m constantly asking myself:

is it considered outing someone if you say “my friend xxxx, oh wait that’s their deadname, i mean’t yyyy”?

is it okay to identify is HoH even though I have never considered myself a member of that culture, but feel my experiences are aligned enough?

is it really anti-Black/anti-feminist of me to call Kamala by her first name and Cuomo by his last name?

we need to expand the definitions of activism and people who can be “in the club” and get to wear the badge so that we can compassionately teach more of the intricacies of club involvement. that being said virtue signalling is pretty important. profit-based marketing that preys on people looking for virtue signals from brands they thought they could believe in…. yikes, for sure, but that’s a different issue. there’s no way an entire company / entity / business even has the same understanding of xyz issues that they’re slapping a rainbow flag on so like ???

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Welcome to 2021: Where the days are made up and the weeks don’t matter

i made a 6 day spread starting on wednesday bc i have realised that None Of It Matters– what functional use do i have for being able to see all 7 days at once? in this economy? no way. i always way prefer having space for stickers and white space and the ability to include everything i DO need rather than trying to cram 7 days, or stretch 5 days.

it reminded me that any DIY planning style is always going to be super individual and even then constantly ready to change to fit my life as it ebbs and flows. i think i find it really neat to be able to do something just for me and no one else simply because i like it or find it helpful. i’m grateful for that autonomy.

anyway i got these cute fun stickers at Michael’s the other day! my sweet pals got me a gift card for my birthday and i thought i lost it (oops) but when i found it i drove straight to Michael’s so i wouldn’t have a chance to lose it again ! this pack of stickers had many astrology themes and is purple and gold based so i LOVE it! i also got a floral pack, to no one’s surprise.

what new types of bullet journalling have you done since The Quar started?

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(Belated) Tunesday: I wrote a song!

I sold my camera last summer and the narrative is incredibly present on my YouTube channel (see: 8 month break + suddenly abysmal video quality).

I’m participating in the RPM Challenge and I made a goal of recording 5 songs this month! Here’s one that I started a little over a year ago and plan on finishing up by the end of February:


It’s called “Outta My Head” and it’s about the wild anxiety you feel around a crush and not knowing what to do– especially when gender norms and expectations are out the window. It’s exhilirating and freeing but for a persistent overthinking like myself, I tend to find myself hyperanalyzing every single situation. This song is both an example of that as well as a manifestation of that.

I’m still looking for feedback on both lyrics and structure– drop a line if you have any ideas!!

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Spotify Tour Part 1

Happy Tunesday!! Today I’ll be highlighting some of my Spotify playlists. Feel free to follow me or any of the specific playlists that strike your fancy! I really like curating playlists and love talking about music so I figured hey, why not showcase some of my pet projects.

I’m going to be posting this in 3 parts but the playlist selection is in no particular order.

This is being published in January 2021, so if you read this at a significantly later date, it’s possible the exact titles and emotions for the playlists may evolve. If that happens I’ll try to update this post as needed!


dark & stormy

what’s the vibe: this playlist is for songs that are a little bit sinister. Lots of minor keys, complex chords, and the occasional sad lyricism.

when to listen: put this playlist on shuffle on a moody night when you just want to DANCE and forget that you’re in your feelings but still feel seen by the artists you’re dancing along to

title insight: this is just one of the many playlists i have named after beverages. this seemed the most appropriate based on the goal of my playlist

sample artists: BANKS, MS MR, Lorde, Lykke Li

honey wine

what’s the vibe: this playlist is for songs that you might describe as fun folk. anything that can make a city dweller feel like they’re on a ranch in the middle of a square dance night. it’s similar to my “on my Indie B.S.” playlist but the key difference is honey wine tracks usually have a banjo or fiddle or mandolin at some point.

sample artists: Half Moon Run, Billy Raffoul, Matt Corby, Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros, Birdtalker, Churchill

the vibes? immaculate.

what’s the vibe: this is filled with chillhop and R&B for the most part

when to listen: at the kickback where the friendship is much more important than the playlist but that still allows for lulls in conversation to have you immersed in something tasteful and smooth. we’re relaxing and it’s incredibly chill.

title insight: the vibes are just immaculate, idk what to tell you….

sample artists: Nao, Masego, Chloe x Halle, Brasstracks, Cautious Clay, The Internet, Kid Cudi, WILLOW, Khalid

breath of fresh air

what’s the vibe: i made this in order to spend 7 hours walking one day. ever since, i’ve curated it a bit further to be a collection of upbeat songs that i generally like but don’t necessarily seek out– like elevator music for my brain.

when to listen: on a long long walk in nice weather :~) smell the grass!!! feel the earth beneath u!! smile up at the sun !!

sample artists: Ingrid Michaelson, Sara Bareilles, Julia Michaels, Lizzo, Sylvan Esso, Wrabel, Fletcher, Vanessa Carlton, alt-J, Ruth B., Young the Giant

electro-trash

what’s the vibe: i had an electro swing phase in college, around the time the new Great Gatsby movie had come out (which I never saw but I listened to the playlist religiously). the songs are jazzy and fun and some of them have really good drops as well as repetitive hooks and lyrics.

when to listen: either when you’re going to a roaring 20s themed party or when ur doing work and u gotta focus!!! the repetition and use of loops is incredibly helpful for a scatterbrain like me but if you’re someone who needs pure instrumentals, this might not be for you 😦

title insight: i was embarrassed by my obsession so this was me trying to downplay it. i’m keeping it though because i can’t think of anything better. let me know if you have ideas that are in the bevvy theme!!

sample artists: Parov Stelar, Caravan Palace, Belleruche, The Electric Swing Circus, Swing Republic, Beats Antique, Scott Bradlee

by any other name

title insight: shakespeare quote because i am incredibly unoriginal. this playlist contains songs that are names, that’s it! there are a few that include names such as “What Sarah Said” or “Jenny Don’t Be Hasty” simply because i adore those songs but for the most part they are all just single name titled tracks.

what’s the vibe: there is literally no vibe — the songs span a host of genres

when to listen: don’t lol just find ur name or the names of your friends/boo/family, listen to that song, then keep it movin xoxo


So that’s all for this week! Let me know how your organize your playlists? I feel like my Virgo and Aquarius really woke up and chose harmony and that’s why I’m Like This when it comes to my music playlists!!